It felt voyeuristic to read a book about my mate, even though he had written it and invited me to read it. I thought, Jerry's told me the bits he wants me to know, the rest is personal. But after a while I did start reading and it is a very readable book. My heart goes out to the young lad growing up and trying to find his way, being brought up to respect his elders and betters only to learn the hard way he shouldn't have. I learnt more about my friend and understand now how all the snippets he had told me sit together, and the consequences of what went on are still coming to light.